I’m not sure whether the decision that I made last night is correct or not but I think It would be the good decision to me for the moment right now. It’s been some time that I didn’t really feel so release and relax. I have been working 3 jobs for few months and it causes me work 7 days a week without a off day. No doubt, all my jobs are interesting. As a freelance fashion designer, I do beautiful dresser for my customer. As a music teacher, I have fun while teaching my student and educate them with music. As an activation executive of an event company, I do have a lot of chances to meet new hot chicks =)
Nothing is perfect, even life though. Things in our life might not go smoothly as you wish. Everything in life, it will always nice and beautiful at the beginning. But the greatness of the person or things hardly last long. Soon, the time shows you the ugly part. I think it applies into anything whether it’s about your relationship, friendship or even your job.
I’m not that kind of person who likes to complain a lot. But I do found out myself file lots of complains nowadays. I complain about my previous relationship, I complain about my job. I cried last night. One of my jobs has brought me a lot of pressure. I think it’s good for me to resign because I’m pretty sure that I really can’t take it anymore. Everyone has their limit and it just over my limit. Today, I wake up from my bed with a super good feeling. I feel relax and release.
I try to deal with the stress issue before. But it seems not working correctly. Communicating with someone who always think he or she is right is just like talking to a stone. Even when it comes to argument, even when I tried to voice out what I think in my mind. At the end, the result is remain same. Dealing with an ego person is a tough job because he or she will never accept your suggestion or explanation. At the point where he or she thinks he or she is always right. I think it wastes my time to communicate with him or her anymore.
I hate stress. A woman under stress is not immediately concerned with finding solutions to her problems but rather seeks relief by expressing herself and being understood. I think I would rather to choose to treat my life more like a party than something to stress about. I understand the theory of stress is a must in part of our life to make ourselves improve to become more productive and initiative but when the pressure has reached some certain level. I personally think that it can kill me. Living my day with full of stresses without smiling happily. It’s suck!!!
The day while I start feeling scare and unhappy when each time I walk into my office. I think it’s time for me to leave the company. Money cannot buy my happiness away.
I read this from internet: When you find yourself stressed, ask yourself one question, “Will this matter in 5 years from now? If yes, then do something about the situation. If no, then let it go.” My answer is yes. And the ‘something’ that I did about the situation is leaving. Stay away from the place where brings me too much pressure.
It makes no sense to worry about things you have no control over because there's nothing you can do about them, and why worry about things you do control? The activity of worrying keeps you immobilized. So I have made a decision for myself to get out from that situation. I asked myself several times before I make up my mind whether will I feel regret about it. And the answer that I gave myself is NO. I wouldn’t feel any regret on this decision.
I would appreciate a little bit of stress appears in my life to improve myself but definitely I’m not welcome TOO MANY unnecessary stresses come and find me. Sorry to say that, I can’t take it and I don’t want to take it.
Right now, I’m having my stress free moment. Having a cup of cappuccino; spending my time in a café writing my blog. I feel great! I’m really feeling great at this moment.
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Pic of my sister
and a pic of Danny >.< 
